Running, in memory of Aaron

I lay in bed most nights wondering what I can do to change the world. Yes, sometimes I aspire to be a super hero. Although minus the tights, and no cape. I have children and I have watched the 'Incredibles' and I know what happens when you wear a cape. I also lay in bed and wonder about all my boys. I wonder about Stockton and worry about him. I worry about Preston. I hope amazing things for my kids because after all their Mom is an imaginary superhero and so by that fact alone they will be amazing....even if it is for pretends. I wonder about Aaron and I know he is amazing.

As a family we are out to heal ourselves, and I know this is something that I keep talking about, but it is a everyday fight to not get down, to not lay in bed and to not get angry when I am faced with the reality of all of this. Because if you didn't know -- well, Sam and I have been wanting a baby for forever and we waited and waited. And along with us getting pregnant so did everyone else. And now we have babies raining from Heaven and a nephew that was even born (seriously I am sure) on the same day that Aaron would have been born. Sweet uh...So we try, we try really, really hard to be happy. I try, I try so hard that I am sure any day now I will get a knock on my door for super hero try outs. I think the one thing that is so hard about grief is in someway you have to try and keep your dignity too. BUT I am just putting it out there I may not be the most dignified Aunt to my newest nieces and nephew. It is really really hard to look at them and wonder a little why things turned out the way they did. Not just why did my baby die but just the timing of all the events that are happening, it is really hard.

So what do you do when you are faced with hard things? Well my Mother in Law would say "We can do hard things." And I know I can, I know we can. I watched this post about these (FYI: click on anything blue and it will link you to what I am talking about)Almost super hero GUYS, I am sure that was a hard and amazing thing to do. I love running!! I am out to set some goals and I would love to have help with in running in memory of Aaron. The first is the Thanksgiving Point Half Marathon It is coming soon, but hey I just had a baby and I am doing it, so if you want a challenge walk/run it. Next is of course the Race for the Cure, and March of Dimes and I really have to support Running with Angels, (I will be looking for some 10k's to fill in here) and then I am wanting and wishing, (Mandy & Nataile this is for you) the Saint George Marathon. Who would like to join me?? I need a goal, I need something to look forward too and this is something I love to do, so I will run my way through this really hard time and I am looking for a lot of support. Any supporters?